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28 Weeks |
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29 Weeks |
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30.5 Weeks |
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32 Weeks |
And the belly continues to grow! Yay for Nora! We can't wait to meet her and I am shocked that I only have 8 weeks left. I have officially hit the 8 month mark. I can't believe it.
My dear Husband has been in Alabama in the blazing heat at Air Force ROTC Field Training. I am so proud of him, but I miss him so much it hurts. The Lord has helped us and blessed us in so many ways to get to this point, and he continues to carry us over these long 4 weeks. 4 weeks doesn't seem long when I think about the deployments that may be in my future. But 4 weeks is a really long time without any contact whatsoever. My husband is my very best friend. He's the person I go to with everything; the good and the bad and the normal day to day details. I tell him when Nora kicks, or when she has the hiccups and he talks to her everyday. We're always there for each other and we always hangout with one another. Being without him is so lonely. And not being able to talk to him or even see a text message from him makes me feel so empty. Empty is a good word to describe how I feel. And it's so strange to be feeling this emptiness when I am with my family. The people I grew up with and who took care of me for 18+ years. I guess it affirms the strong bond that I have with Stefan and how much I truly love and care for him. Because even with the love of my parents, sisters and brother, my heart still hurts.
It's hard to know that he isn't enjoying himself either. It's hot and there is so much being demanded of him every day. He's in a place where he is being held to the highest standard. He's stressed out 24/7, and I know him well enough to know that he is probably not sleeping well. He's being yelled at constantly as they are trying to create the highest stress environment and weed out the weak links. Stefan is a perfectionist so I hope he isn't being too hard on himself if he feels like he's failed at any certain task. He's my hero. So dedicated, hard-working, and persistent. He wants to make a difference in this world and he's determined to reach his goals. The Lord has made it possible for us to make it this far and it's beautiful to see him continue to answer our prayers daily. I know that He is watching over Stefan while he is 2.000 miles away. He's helping him to perform to the best of his abilities and remember all the things he's learned throughout his preparatory years of FTP. I know that Stefan is praying for me because even though I feel lonely, I have felt comforted. He's made the transition easier and he makes it a little easier each day. I am so thankful for this gospel and for the support system I have within it. I am thankful for my Savior and for his example to me. I am thankful for my amazing husband who I can't wait to be reunited with. He's my everything and soon we will be welcoming our sweet baby Nora home. We truly are so blessed.